Conscience. That's the big deal. My conscience doesn't allow me to act without thinking twice before.
Thinking before means considering all the posible facts around a situation. Represents imagining it before it happens... Definitely, it's not living. Because you get stuck on it and it doesn't allow you to choose one of them, as you'd do with a normal conscience. So when they tell you: "think it twice!" don't pay attention. Just follow your own advice, which makes you a person, not a robot. A robot, that's what I am. Handling all the posibilities and taking no decisions.
Most people would tell me that i'm lucky for thinking all twice, but i'm not. I'm deeply condemned with a voice always speaking to me about fears, fails and beyond. Kind of never-breaking false alarm. I just can stop it by putting my mind to another situation which allows me to switch it off. But I'm alone most of the time.
Some might say that I've a guilty conscience. But it's not the point because I've never done something on purpose in order to hurt anyone. Why should I feel guilty...?
I'm just being myself. This is the way I am and I shouldn't feel disappointed. Some might say that i'm not like i'm supposed to be. But THIS is me in fact. I just have to get used to it and get over it. And that's what i'm doing.
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It depends... If you have to do a work in the University, it´s better to think twice. In the heart bussiness, not. I´m sorry for my poor english. Since four years before I haven´t writing nothing in this languaje.
But, like the japaneese said: Banzzai!! XDD
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